Unexploded, or the Tumorous Growth of my Shadow

Fine. FINE. I FUCKING get it, OK?
So what if they were unreliable right when it counted the most (AGAIN), despite all of their sweet words and past promises?
It's not their fault, right? CLEARLY, they were trying their best, and it was just a moment of weakness.
I just need to make myself stronger.
Practicing coping techniques. Venting through other outlets. Developing yet more skills myself.
FUCK IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH but I'll endure it quietly like everything else.

Fine. FINE. I FUCKING get it, OK?
So what if their emotional instability got the better of them (AGAIN), and they tore into me over a misunderstanding?
It's not their fault, right? OBVIOUSLY, them having a major mental illness excuses it, even if they never apologize.
I just need to make myself stronger.
Improving communication skills. Studying further into psychology. Scrutinizing their moods more closely.
FUCK IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH but I'll endure it quietly like everything else.

Fine. FINE. I FUCKING get it, OK?
So what if they decided to vomit all of their problems onto me after a simple hello (AGAIN), without even asking how I'm doing afterward?
It's not their fault, right? NATURALLY, it shows that they trust me, so I should be grateful, regardless of whether they ever return the favor.
I just need to make myself stronger.
Being more patient. Maintaining more emotional distance. Learning how to validate better.
FUCK IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH but I'll endure it quietly like everything else.

Fine. FINE. I FUCKING get it, OK?
I just need to make myself stronger.
FUCK IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH but I'll endure it quietly like everything else.